Sunday, November 15, 2009!

I just wrote the longest post ever about my last few days
and why I am exhausted and then BLOOP, I pressed a button 
and it all was gone. I was lucky to even get the first posting
out, so I don't think I'll have the energy to type it all out 

The just of it is this: 2 births, 4 days, very little sleep! One 
was a 30hour home birth and the other was a slightly 
shorter 24hour hospital birth, but hey, who's counting? 
I visited the little bundles of joy today, they were both 
girls, everyone is doing very well!

This week I have two more clients due, so it doesn't look 
like I will be sleeping very well in the future (and yes I am 
aware of how silly it is to be blogging instead of sleeping).
I do not normally take this many clients but a doula 
co-worker of mine is pregnant with twins and is on bed 
rest so I'm will be taking on some of her clients. 

Normally I don't mind this lack of sleep, I am actually 
pretty good with it, but for the last few months its been 
hitting me a lot harder. Emotionally I am just tired to 
begin with, The stress of TRYING to have a baby, the 
scheduled BD, the 2ww, and the unavoidable 
disappointment is all starting to get to me. This stress
seems to double when you add lack of sleep to the mix. 

I have been working really hard this month, doing everything
I can to give us the best chance this month, but now that 
were in the 2ww I am not getting any sleep. Is this ruining 
my chances of conceiving? what kind of damage can missing
a night or two of sleeping do? am I going to have to quit 
everything I do and everything I love to just sit on my bed
and wait for a baby to grow?

I was really excited and optimistic about this cycle but now 
that I'm in the 2ww I am worried that these nights of no
sleep have screwed everything up. However, my sister in law told
me that all I need to do to get pregnant is to sit on a bed where
a woman has just given birth (ahhh, I love advice) its supposed
to be good luck, or trigger hormones or something. Who knows?
Maybe she's right, maybe it won't matter that I haven't slept 
because instead I have been on/near/in beds fresh with the 
new baby smell :) 

Before I go to bed I do want to comment on all the BFP that are 
popping up on the blogs these days. I really couldn't be happier 
for everyone and I think about you guys all the time! It's
funny, when someone I know gets pregnant I cry for three 
days, but when I hear a BFP here, I am over the moon!!
You give us all hope ladies, and I'm praying for you!


  1. Even though I have only been following you a short time, I am so hopeful that your time is now. Your attitude and strength would serve you well as a mommy.

    Let's cross fingers, toes, eyes, ears and nose that the combo of herb teas and sitting on a freshly born baby bed is the magic prescription!

    Thinking of you in your 2ww.

  2. Wow, you have been busy! I was wondering -- what happens if two of your clients go into labor at the same time? How does that work? I never really thought about how you would balance that out.

    I just entered the 2WW, too ... I can test on the 24th. So I understand!! Hang in there, I am thinking of you!

  3. How come no one has told me about sitting in a new birthed bed technique! Honestly if I knew that four years ago I would've been saved all of this heartache!!!

    Ha ha.

    Get some rest!

  4. After this post, we're going to see a report on the evening news about a rush of infertiles on the local maternity ward to lay in the beds :).

    I hope you get some rest soon!

  5. You mean I didn't have to spend $14,000 on IVF? All I had to do was sit on a fertile bed?! LOL! Who knew?!

    I've got my fingers crossed that those horrible tasting herbs did the trick for you this month!