and why I am exhausted and then BLOOP, I pressed a button
and it all was gone. I was lucky to even get the first posting
out, so I don't think I'll have the energy to type it all out
The just of it is this: 2 births, 4 days, very little sleep! One
was a 30hour home birth and the other was a slightly
shorter 24hour hospital birth, but hey, who's counting?
I visited the little bundles of joy today, they were both
girls, everyone is doing very well!
This week I have two more clients due, so it doesn't look
like I will be sleeping very well in the future (and yes I am
aware of how silly it is to be blogging instead of sleeping).
I do not normally take this many clients but a doula
co-worker of mine is pregnant with twins and is on bed
rest so I'm will be taking on some of her clients.
Normally I don't mind this lack of sleep, I am actually
pretty good with it, but for the last few months its been
hitting me a lot harder. Emotionally I am just tired to
begin with, The stress of TRYING to have a baby, the
scheduled BD, the 2ww, and the unavoidable
disappointment is all starting to get to me. This stress
seems to double when you add lack of sleep to the mix.
I have been working really hard this month, doing everything
I can to give us the best chance this month, but now that
were in the 2ww I am not getting any sleep. Is this ruining
my chances of conceiving? what kind of damage can missing
a night or two of sleeping do? am I going to have to quit
everything I do and everything I love to just sit on my bed
and wait for a baby to grow?
I was really excited and optimistic about this cycle but now
that I'm in the 2ww I am worried that these nights of no
sleep have screwed everything up. However, my sister in law told
me that all I need to do to get pregnant is to sit on a bed where
a woman has just given birth (ahhh, I love advice) its supposed
to be good luck, or trigger hormones or something. Who knows?
Maybe she's right, maybe it won't matter that I haven't slept
because instead I have been on/near/in beds fresh with the
new baby smell :)
Before I go to bed I do want to comment on all the BFP that are
popping up on the blogs these days. I really couldn't be happier
for everyone and I think about you guys all the time! It's
funny, when someone I know gets pregnant I cry for three
days, but when I hear a BFP here, I am over the moon!!
You give us all hope ladies, and I'm praying for you!