span months of May and June, but the babes had their own plans and
all came at once. These were the last few births I had before I take a
summer break, thats right, I'm OFF call for the next 2 months, I no
longer have to be a slave to my ring tone!!!!! I'm going to miss the little
babies being born this summer, but with my laparoscopy scheduled for
"sometime in june or july" I didn't want to run the risk of not being
there for my clients.
Now that I have had some time to reflect on the births (and some
time to sleep) I can begin to put into words what I have learned.
Each birth I attend is vastly different from the last, and each come
with some kind of lesson both for me and the birthing mother. I
don't wish to dive too far into their birth stories, but I will say the
ultimate theme of the week was TRUST.
As each woman came to and passed their due dates they really
needed to dig deep and TRUST in their bodies and natures plan.
There is a tremendous amount of pressure to induce once a
woman passes 40 weeks and it take a LOT of trust in oneself
to let the baby decide when they are ready to join our world.
As each day passed they needed to work harder to hold on
to their beliefs that they are strong healthy woman, and that
one day their baby will arrive. Now, one week after the babies
decided to come, I have to ask myself If I have had this kind
of trust in myself over the last two years. Do I believe I am a
strong healthy woman and that one day my baby will be here?
not really, not at all.
I have allowed the medical system to tell me that I don't know
my body, that my baby will not come, and that medical assistance
is needed. Are they right? perhaps, and for many of us, medical
assistance IS needed, but have I tried enough on my own first?
I don't think so. I don't think I ever really believed that I could
do this on my own.
So I have decided to do what I have suggested to my clients
over the last few years. I am going to do EVERYTHING I can to
have this baby on my own, before turning to the medical doctors.
I am going to TRUST in myself and in my decisions, this way if I
do need medical assistance I will truly know that it was a
necessary step for us to take, not one that I took out of fear or
lack of trust in myself.
So.....here is our NEW plan:
1. My darling hubby as agreed to do 3 month of acupuncture to help
with his little swimmers!!! (trust me, this did not come without a price,
for every hour he spends doing my "crazy hippy" treatments, he gets
a day to himself, no chores, no visits.....nothing, just a day on his own)
2. I will have my laparoscopy, of course I know this is medical intervention,
but at this time I truly believe it is a necessary step.
3. After my surgery, and hubby's acupuncture, we will be playing with
a full deck, ideally. I will go back on the chinese herbs/acupuncture that
produced such wonderful CM that I was sure that even ONE stray sperm
with the resemblance of a drill would be sucked into my egg to
produce a wee little one.
4. Continue to try on our own for 6 months, continuing with the
acupuncture, yoga, chiro ext.
5. mmmmmmmm, not so sure what to do if this does not work.
So that's it, our new plan, one based on trust in our own research, in our
own gut feelings and our own decisions. I am happy with it and really
feel that if we need to move on to ART after this, I can look back and say
that we have tried everything.