The Game Plan

In the last 7 days I have attended 3 births, these births were meant to 

span months of May and June, but the babes had their own plans and 

all came at once. These were the last few births I had before I take a 

summer break, thats right, I'm OFF call for the next 2 months, I no 

longer have to be a slave to my ring tone!!!!! I'm going to miss the little 

babies being born this summer, but with my laparoscopy scheduled for 

"sometime in june or july" I didn't want to run the risk of not being 

there for my clients. 

Now that I have had some time to reflect on the births (and some 

time to sleep) I can begin to put into words what I have learned. 

Each birth I attend is vastly different from the last, and each come

with some kind of lesson both for me and the birthing mother. I 

don't wish to dive too far into their birth stories, but I will say the

ultimate theme of the week was TRUST. 

As each woman came to and passed their due dates they really 

needed to dig deep and TRUST in their bodies and natures plan. 

There is a tremendous amount of pressure to induce once a 

woman passes 40 weeks and it take a LOT of trust in oneself

to let the baby decide when they are ready to join our world.

As each day passed they needed to work harder to hold on 

to their beliefs that they are strong healthy woman, and that

one day their baby will arrive. Now, one week after the babies

decided to come, I have to ask myself If I have had this kind

of trust in myself over the last two years. Do I believe I am a 

strong healthy woman and that one day my baby will be here? 

not really, not at all. 

I have allowed the medical system to tell me that I don't know

my body, that my baby will not come, and that medical assistance

is needed. Are they right? perhaps, and for many of us, medical 

assistance IS needed, but have I tried enough on my own first? 

I don't think so. I don't think I ever really believed that I could 

do this on my own.

So I have decided to do what I have suggested to my clients 

over the last few years. I am going to do EVERYTHING I can to 

have this baby on my own, before turning to the medical doctors. 

I am going to TRUST in myself and in my decisions, this way if I 

do need medical assistance I will truly know that it was a 

necessary step for us to take, not one that I took out of fear or 

lack of trust in myself. 

So.....here is our NEW plan:

1. My darling hubby as agreed to do 3 month of acupuncture to help

with his little swimmers!!! (trust me, this did not come without a price, 

for every hour he spends doing my "crazy hippy" treatments, he gets

a day to himself, no chores, no visits.....nothing, just a day on his own)

2. I will have my laparoscopy, of course I know this is medical intervention, 

but at this time I truly believe it is a necessary step. 

3. After my surgery, and hubby's acupuncture, we will be playing with 

a full deck, ideally. I will go back on the chinese herbs/acupuncture that 

produced such wonderful CM that I was sure that even ONE stray sperm 

with the resemblance of a drill would be sucked into my egg to

produce a wee little one. 

4. Continue to try on our own for 6 months, continuing with the 

acupuncture, yoga, chiro ext. 

5. mmmmmmmm, not so sure what to do if this does not work. 

So that's it, our new plan, one based on trust in our own research, in our 

own gut feelings and our own decisions.  I am happy with it and really 

feel that if we need to move on to ART after this, I can look back and say 

that we have tried everything.