for two years. I am happy that his pain is now gone and that he will
find his way to my grandmother, but I am sad for myself and my family.
I did not expect to feel this way, after all I new it was coming, but I can't
help but wish he could stay with us.
My grandpa had a hard life, he married my grandmother when
she was only 14 years old and they had finished having their 5 children
by the time she was in her early 20's. Of course I'll never really know
what happened, my guess is the stress of being a mother to 5 children
at such a young age was too much for my grandma. She eventually
became ill and spent the rest of her years in and out of the hospital.
My grandfather remained devoted to her for nearly 40 more years,
he fed her, bathed her, and tried his best to keep the family together.
8 years ago my grandmother died, grandpa was there with her until
her dying breath. I wondered if he would be happy now that he no
longer needed to take care of her, if he would be happy to live his
own life. When I asked him about this he simply said "my life IS
to take care of her, that is what I am meant to do."
Grandpa, of course, continued on with a smile on his face, he trusted
without a doubt that god had a plan for him and before long he would
be back with his wife. Years went by but he never lost hope, he even
watched as his brothers and sisters passed and he became the last
in that generation of our family to be alive. Still he smiled, still he
knew he would see them all again.
That day did come, that day was yesterday, and I know without a
that after 8 long years of waiting my grandma and grandpa are
together again, in a way they could not be while they were here.
I will always try to remember the strength he had in these years,
is absolute trust in something bigger then us. He never lost hope or
the smile on his face, he has taught me and all of his grandchildren
that strength, hope, patience and laughter will not only get us to
where we want to be but will allow us to enjoy the journey.
I am sad because I will never see him again, sad because he will never
see my children, but if there is anything I have learned from him it is
that I will see him again one day. Until then I must live and love and
trust that I will get to where I want to be.