Tidings of Discomfort and Joy

I haven't written in a while as this week was my family's pre-christmas

christmas. Since my sisters and I have all grown up, my parents have 

been throwing christmas a week early. This makes it easier for all of us 

to be together for the "holidays" without trying to juggle our partners/

husbands family as well. Although we are all grown up, we still spend

Christmas eve in our new pajama's playing board games before going 

to bed and waiting or Santa. 

This year our childish endeavors make a little more sense now that 

my 21/2 year old nephew has been thrown into the mix. This was the 

first year he really understood that Santa would be bringing presents

and showed special care when leaving the cookies out for Santa. 

Having a little guy around definitely breathed a new excitement into 

our holiday traditions, but it was also a constant reminder that yet 

again my husband and I are spending the holidays without a child or

even a baby bump to call our own. 

Christmas has always been a season for lists, mainly shopping lists,

but I though I would make a few lists of my own.....here is my lists

of discomforts and joys that occurred during my holidays. I will 

start with the discomforts so I end on a high note, that way I can 

spend the day shopping rather then wallowing in my own self pity. 

Enjoy!

DISCOMFORTS:

1. Watching my nephew playing all alone with his new christmas toys, 

knowing that if things had gone the way we planned, he would have 

a friend to share, or not share, his new trucks with. 

2. Listening to my Parents and my In-laws discuss their impatience

with our procreation over a nice cup of coffee and desert. 

3. Having the equivalent of the "sex" talk with my father while

trapped in the family mini van. Although I know his intentions were 

nothing but wonderful, hearing my dad tell me to "just relax" and it 

will happen is probably one of the biggest discomforts I will ever 

know ;)

4. Being called to a birth a day before my family leaves to go back

home and feeling like I will miss our final day together.

5. Starting my period for the 18th time since trying to conceive. 

JOYS:

1. Watching my nephew's eyes light up when he came down the stairs

to see that Santa had came and ate up all his cookies.

2. Having my whole family together for the first time in years, 

including my husband and my sisters partner (0nly person

missing was my youngest sisters beau, but there's always next year!). 

It made for a wonderful week and an amazing turkey dinner, with lots 

to be thankful for. *special thanks to my hubby for the turkey*

3. My new Harf........half hat, half scarf, and my brand new down 

filled jacket :)

4. Christmas miracle births that last only 7 hours and give me just

enough time to get home and have a heart to heart with my brother

in law and a good-bye breakfast with my family. 

5. My dream journal, given to me by my middle sister, who has

not only been reading this blog, but has listened enough to

know that a place to record my dreams is exactly what I need. 

6. Going to a salon with my sisters. 

7. My husband being there for me after my family is gone and silence

seems to be the loudest thing in my ears. Although he knew I would

be sad for the days following my family's departure (as I always am) 

he also knew that AF had arrived. At one point in the night he turned

to me and said "we will have a baby for next christmas, I promise".

I know he can't really promise me that, but it was still nice to hear. 

So thats it, it's nice to see that my JOY list is the longer of the two

this holiday season, but of course I still have christmas with the 

in-laws left to go so that may change :)