Midwives and Moodiness

Well, I'm not really moody but I couldn't come up with a good title, I did however

finally find myself the perfect midwife. I currently live in a condo building that sits

directly between a midwifery clinic and a hospital, making me (as long as my health

remains good) a perfect candidate for a home birth. I know I shouldn't be thinking 

THAT far ahead just yet, but because Midwives are in such high demand in toronto

you need to find one as soon as you pee on a stick (or get a positive beta). 

Even though I called this clinic as soon as I found out, I was still put on a waiting list.

They finally called me back last week and I met with her yesterday and was so pleased

with her. I have always, ALWAYS dreamed of using this clinic, not only because its a 

short walk from my home but because it has the best home birth rates (meaning their

transfer rate is lower then most midwifery clinics). I had also always dreamed of a 

older midwife with long grey flowing hair but I will have to settle with a slightly younger

version of that, which is ok with me 'cause I thought she was amazing and so did the

hubby. 

As far as how I'm feeling these days, I'm just tired and nauseous. The nausea is a little 

frustrating because it really does make me feel horrible, but because I'm not vomiting 

everywhere no one seems to take me seriously. I just want to lay on the couch all day 

but I can't, I have to work, take care of the house ext. Like I have said before though, I 

am absolutely thrilled to be feeling sick and tired and wouldn't trade it for anything, 

but I would like my hubby to say something like "ohhh, you just lay down, I will take 

care of everything". Haha, not likely!

Working has been quite challenging as well, teaching fitness classes and attending births

is not so easy when tired and sick. I spent last night at a birth, and I am SO grateful that 

it was short and sweet, both for me and the birthing mama. I am really worried about 

what a night or two without sleep can do to a growing baby. I managed to only be out of 

the house from 11am to 11pm, but there are times when I am at a birth for over 24 hours. 

I am wondering if this job is a good idea during the pregnancy or if it will get easier when 

I am feeling a little more confident about everything. 

I do have to say that after last weeks ultrasound I have been feeling a little more 

positive then before, I still have my moments of doubt and my fears, but I breath slightly easier. Here is the picture from last weeks ultrasound, I really think the baby is quite photogenic!