Thursday, January 13, 2011

Midwives and Moodiness

Well, I'm not really moody but I couldn't come up with a good title, I did however
finally find myself the perfect midwife. I currently live in a condo building that sits
directly between a midwifery clinic and a hospital, making me (as long as my health
remains good) a perfect candidate for a home birth. I know I shouldn't be thinking 
THAT far ahead just yet, but because Midwives are in such high demand in toronto
you need to find one as soon as you pee on a stick (or get a positive beta). 

Even though I called this clinic as soon as I found out, I was still put on a waiting list.
They finally called me back last week and I met with her yesterday and was so pleased
with her. I have always, ALWAYS dreamed of using this clinic, not only because its a 
short walk from my home but because it has the best home birth rates (meaning their
transfer rate is lower then most midwifery clinics). I had also always dreamed of a 
older midwife with long grey flowing hair but I will have to settle with a slightly younger
version of that, which is ok with me 'cause I thought she was amazing and so did the

As far as how I'm feeling these days, I'm just tired and nauseous. The nausea is a little 
frustrating because it really does make me feel horrible, but because I'm not vomiting 
everywhere no one seems to take me seriously. I just want to lay on the couch all day 
but I can't, I have to work, take care of the house ext. Like I have said before though, I 
am absolutely thrilled to be feeling sick and tired and wouldn't trade it for anything, 
but I would like my hubby to say something like "ohhh, you just lay down, I will take 
care of everything". Haha, not likely!

Working has been quite challenging as well, teaching fitness classes and attending births
is not so easy when tired and sick. I spent last night at a birth, and I am SO grateful that 
it was short and sweet, both for me and the birthing mama. I am really worried about 
what a night or two without sleep can do to a growing baby. I managed to only be out of 
the house from 11am to 11pm, but there are times when I am at a birth for over 24 hours. 
I am wondering if this job is a good idea during the pregnancy or if it will get easier when 
I am feeling a little more confident about everything. 

I do have to say that after last weeks ultrasound I have been feeling a little more 
positive then before, I still have my moments of doubt and my fears, but I breath slightly easier. Here is the picture from last weeks ultrasound, I really think the baby is quite photogenic! 


  1. Very photogenic!

    Baby growing is much more important than housework. You should lay on the couch as much as possible, and get (your husband, too) used to a bit more messiness in the house, you know, just in prep for those first few months with baby when you really don't have the extra time/energy to deal with it.

  2. So happy that you found your midwife! I have always wanted a home birth but then IF seemed to shatter that model of care with high risk pregnancies, and well, no pregnancy, fear of multiples and pre-term labor and and an overall high intervention and monitored experience. It is wonderful and hopeful to hear of your plans. I have actually been searching for homebirth after IF stories and look forward to following yours.

  3. That is a very photogenic baby!!!! I must agree. I am so happy you found a midwife. I decided I wanted to homebirth but hubby is having nothing to do with that, so i might try a birthing center instead, not sure. I am jealous, that is for sure (but not of the mroning sickness :() I hope it goes away soon so you can fully enjoy the pregnancy. Glad to hear all si going well otherwise. xoxoxoxox

  4. Gorgeous baby, very photogenic! Congrats on the finding a midwife :)

  5. Fantastic pic! I'm glad that you got a great midwife and you guys can start planning a home birth (your far braver then me! I'm much more hospital with nicu very close kinda girl, seeing a blue baby does that to a woman!).

  6. Lovely pic! How far along are you?

  7. Such a cute little baby! Glad you found a midwife that you like. I'm very impressed that you're doing a home birth - I am definitely not that brave. But as experience as you are in childbirth, you're going to be amazing! I can't wait to hear all about it!

  8. Aren't US pics awesome? There was no way I could work full time during the first tri. I had nausea 24/7, but only managed to vomit a handful of times. And I actually did spend entire days on the couch doing nothing. LOL!

  9. Baby is a super model in the making:)