in a LONG time that I have felt at peace with myself and those around
me. Today was the first day of the Yoga Conference, a weekend long
conference of all things YOGA, which I love. Today was all about
learning how to heal your body through the Chakra's. I listened to
every sentence, word, syllable that came out of that teachers mouth,
especially when she talked about the 2nd Chakra, the channel that
governs fertility. Of course they all work together, but it was SO nice
to hear that I could possibly heal MYSELF!! I remember I used to
believe this, but after all the R.E. appointments and tests ext. I forgot
that we have this type of power!
Of course I am not silly enough to think that I can fix everything by
chanting VUMMMM all day long when there is a medical reason for
our issues, but I believe it can help. Everything just seemed to become
so clear the more she talked, of course blockages can come up in your
body when you ignore somethings and focus on others! One thing I
found of particular importance is that this Chakra relies heavily on
community, and in our society community has all but been lost. This
could be the reason for the growing number of menstrual/fertility
issues. Perhaps this is why we have this urge to blog? I know myself
all of my family lives away, my friends too...I have very few close
friends in this big city!
This chakra also needs creative arts to thrive, she suggested singing
making art ext. to feed this channel. She even suggested writing a
love letter to yourself, which I can only see as being VERY hard, but
perhaps healing? Perhaps this will be my next post? If I am brave
Anyway, if you don't think I'm gullible enough yet, it gets worse.
Immediately after this lecture I went RIGHT to the psychic that
was down stairs at the conference trade show. I can never resist
a psychic, especially when I'm feeling slightly optimistic. I probably
should have quit while I was ahead though cause he really freaked
The very VERY first thing he said to me, before I even said my name
was "why are you not a mother yet?".....................after about 15 min.
of crying I finally answered "because I can't be one". He let me know
that I will be a mother and a really good mother, but the problem is
I will never feel complete until I am a mother. He said there may be
a breakthrough in our "treatment" by July and "good news" by
November. One other freaky thing, he said I am a year passed the time
I was meant to be a mother!
Now here is a secret, one that I have told NO ONE, only my hubby
and I know. 2 Christmas's ago I was late for my period, I am
never late, but there I was 2 weeks late, we thought for sure I was
pregnant. When AF came It was heavier and more painful then
ever, we have both always suspected a miscarriage but I never did
follow up with a doctor. I really did not want to think/talk about it
again, so I did not, not ever......until today. Perhaps I am one year
passed the time I was meant to be a mother?
Ok, enough of that, I must just watch TV and veg. for the rest of the
night. You will be happy to know though, that I will make lots of
money in my lifetime ;)