Gullible?

Today was an AMAZING DAY....I think! To me, it was the first time 

in a LONG time that I have felt at peace with myself and those around 

me. Today was the first day of the Yoga Conference, a weekend long 

conference of all things YOGA, which I love. Today was all about 

learning how to heal your body through the Chakra's. I listened to 

every sentence, word, syllable that came out of that teachers mouth, 

especially when she talked about the 2nd Chakra, the channel that 

governs fertility. Of course they all work together, but it was SO nice 

to hear that I could possibly heal MYSELF!! I remember I used to 

believe this, but after all the R.E. appointments and tests ext. I forgot 

that we have this type of power!

Of course I am not silly enough to think that I can fix everything by 

chanting VUMMMM all day long when there is a medical reason for 

our issues, but I believe it can help. Everything just seemed to become

so clear the more she talked, of course blockages can come up in your

body when you ignore somethings and focus on others! One thing I 

found of particular importance is that this Chakra relies heavily on 

community, and in our society community has all but been lost. This

could be the reason for the growing number of menstrual/fertility 

issues. Perhaps this is why we have this urge to blog? I know myself

all of my family lives away, my friends too...I have very few close 

friends in this big city!

This chakra also needs creative arts to thrive, she suggested singing

making art ext. to feed this channel. She even suggested writing a 

love letter to yourself, which I can only see as being VERY hard, but

perhaps healing? Perhaps this will be my next post? If I am brave

enough?

Anyway, if you don't think I'm gullible enough yet, it gets worse. 

Immediately after this lecture I went RIGHT to the psychic that 

was down stairs at the conference trade show. I can never resist 

a psychic, especially when I'm feeling slightly optimistic. I probably 

should have quit while I was ahead though cause he really freaked 

me out. 

The very VERY first thing he said to me, before I even said my name 

was "why are you not a mother yet?".....................after about 15 min. 

of crying I finally answered "because I can't be one". He let me know

that I will be a mother and a really good mother, but the problem is

I will never feel complete until I am a mother. He said there may be

a breakthrough in our "treatment" by July and "good news" by 

November. One other freaky thing, he said I am a year passed the time 

I was meant to be a mother!

Now here is a secret, one that I have told NO ONE, only my hubby 

and I know. 2 Christmas's ago I was late for my period, I am 

never late, but there I was 2 weeks late, we thought for sure I was 

pregnant. When AF came It was heavier and more painful then 

ever, we have both always suspected a miscarriage but I never did 

follow up with a doctor. I really did not want to think/talk about it 

again, so I did not, not ever......until today. Perhaps I am one year 

passed the time I was meant to be a mother?

Ok, enough of that, I must just watch TV and veg. for the rest of the 

night. You will be happy to know though, that I will make lots of 

money in my lifetime ;)