on a stick and seeing two lines. The dream was so real that it reassured me as I
waited the 7 hours to hear the results. I couldn't believe that somewhere deep in
my subconscious I knew it would be positive, even though in my conscious mind
I was freakin out.
On the days since the positive test I have been having a few symptoms, but I would
really love to have more. I want to wake up every morning throwing up, but I
actually just wake up slightly nauseous. I want my boobs to be huge and sore, but
they are actually just normal size with slight tenderness.
Last night I had another dream, this one was not a good one. I had a dream that
I kept begging the woman at the clinic to retest my blood because I just knew that
things were going wrong. When they finally did test, it showed that the pregnancy
hormones had all but disappeared.
I woke up terribly frightened, sure that my subconscious was trying to tell me
something again. What is worse is that I also woke up with no more symptoms at all,
not a tender breast or a wave of nausea. I ended up worrying for the whole day until
finally my cousin-in-law told me to go get a pregnancy to see if everything is ok.
Fancy idea right? I had actually not done that at all.
Good news is, there were two lines....Great news actually. I think I'm feeling a
little better about everything. Maybe I just needed to see the positive for myself,
hearing I'm pregnant over the phone may have been a little abstract. I really need
to figure out a way to stop worrying though.