sentence by Dr. Seuss:
You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled
roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish
wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting
The Waiting Place…for people just waiting
I've read "Oh! The Places You'll Go" several times, but not in many years, and
definitely not while in the midst of TTC. It's almost eery how perfectly this
sentence captured the way I have been feeling for for the past two years. Confused,
scattered, running down paths I'd never thought I would travel, paths that lead
to more paths, or worse, dead ends. The Waiting Place, it's where I have been
living, nothing seems to be as important as what I am waiting for, everything
seems to pale in comparison to having a baby. I have been so busy waiting for
my family to arrive that I have not been enjoying what I have right now.
I really REALLY do want to enjoy what I have right now, I DO!!! I am a lucky girl,
with a great job, a nice condo, a lovely hubby, but all that seems to matter to me
is making a baby. Will I only "truly" be happy when I have a baby? or could I be
happy here and now if I just got off of my prikle-ly perch?
This sentence captured my whole being so well that I could not resist the urge to
post it on Facebook. Every once and a while I put a truthful posting on Facebook,
one that states how I really feel. Very rarely do I get a response, I think people get
confused when there are postings about something other then babies and pregnancy.
Today was a different story though, a very close friend of mine posted this in
response:
Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find
the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner
flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything
under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy! or (girl!)
It was the most perfect and lovely response, I felt for the first time in a long time
that somebody out there (outside of blog world) was listening to how I felt, AND
that someone cared enough to respond. The strange thing is, this kinda woke me up,
I have been so high upon this perch that I totally forgot the next part of the story.
I forgot that somehow I will escape all this waiting and staying, that one day I will
be on the other side of all this.
I know this book was not written specifically for those of us trying desperately to
start a family, but I think it applies to just about every challenge in life. I know in
my own life I can look back on many times where I was stuck in The Waiting
Place, thinking I would never escape. I did though, everytime......and I will this
time too! One day the boom bands will be playing for me.
I'm going to look for my copy of that book right now:) Your post is so beautiful and full of insight, and yay for your fiend that "got" it!!
ReplyDeleteYou know, I've never actually read that book? I may have to look up a copy now...
ReplyDeleteI hope you escape the waiting soon. I hope we all do!
WOW. That does sum it up doesn't it? I've never read it but now will go pick it up. What a beautiful response too. Amazing that someone on facebook world understood.
ReplyDeleteIncredible post Tasha XO!
ReplyDeleteWow - I love this!!! Just amazing.
ReplyDeleteAlso - love the new look for your blog!
Hi Tishi - So glad I stumbled across your little place here. My lover and I are also dealing with male factor issues. I am looking forward to reading through more of your story, but can only imagine how hard it must be to do the work that you you do while traveling this journey. My mom is an early parent educator, a doula, lactation consultant, etc, and I am intimately intertwined into her work as a consultant of sorts, I am sure that we have much more in common as well :) Take care!
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