Saturday, June 12, 2010

Hung Up In a Prikle-ly Perch

Today I was reading through some blogs when I happened upon this this familiar 
sentence by Dr. Seuss:

You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long wiggled 
roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish 
wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.

The Waiting Place…for people just waiting

I've read "Oh! The Places You'll Go" several times, but not in many years, and 
definitely not while in the midst of TTC. It's almost eery how perfectly this 
sentence captured the way I have been feeling for for the past two years. Confused, 
scattered, running down paths I'd never thought I would travel, paths that lead 
to more paths, or worse, dead ends. The Waiting Place, it's where I have been 
living, nothing seems to be as important as what I am waiting for, everything 
seems to pale in comparison to having a baby. I have been so busy waiting for 
my family to arrive that I have not been enjoying what I have right now. 

I really REALLY do want to enjoy what I have right now, I DO!!! I am a lucky girl, 
with a great job, a nice condo, a lovely hubby, but all that seems to matter to me 
is making a baby. Will I only "truly" be happy when I have a baby? or could I be 
happy here and now if I just got off of my prikle-ly perch?

This sentence captured my whole being so well that I could not resist the urge to 
post it on Facebook. Every once and a while I put a truthful posting on Facebook, 
one that states how I really feel. Very rarely do I get a response, I think people get 
confused when there are postings about something other then babies and pregnancy. 
Today was a different story though, a very close friend of mine posted this in 

Somehow you’ll escape all that waiting and staying. You’ll find 
the bright places where Boom Bands are playing. With banner 
flip-flapping, once more you’ll ride high! Ready for anything 
under the sky. Ready because you’re that kind of a guy! or (girl!)

It was the most perfect and lovely response, I felt for the first time in a long time 
that somebody out there (outside of blog world) was listening to how I felt, AND 
that someone cared enough to respond. The strange thing is, this kinda woke me up, 
I have been so high upon this perch that I totally forgot the next part of the story. 
I forgot that somehow I will escape all this waiting and staying, that one day I will 
be on the other side of all this. 

I know this book was not written specifically for those of us trying desperately to 
start a family, but I think it applies to just about every challenge in life. I know in
my own life I can look back on many times where I was stuck in The Waiting 
Place, thinking I would never escape. I did though, everytime......and I will this
time too! One day the boom bands will be playing for me. 


  1. I'm going to look for my copy of that book right now:) Your post is so beautiful and full of insight, and yay for your fiend that "got" it!!

  2. You know, I've never actually read that book? I may have to look up a copy now...
    I hope you escape the waiting soon. I hope we all do!

  3. WOW. That does sum it up doesn't it? I've never read it but now will go pick it up. What a beautiful response too. Amazing that someone on facebook world understood.

  4. Wow - I love this!!! Just amazing.

    Also - love the new look for your blog!

  5. Hi Tishi - So glad I stumbled across your little place here. My lover and I are also dealing with male factor issues. I am looking forward to reading through more of your story, but can only imagine how hard it must be to do the work that you you do while traveling this journey. My mom is an early parent educator, a doula, lactation consultant, etc, and I am intimately intertwined into her work as a consultant of sorts, I am sure that we have much more in common as well :) Take care!