longest 2 weeks waiting EVER!!!

I know I have already done the two weeks waiting thing 28 times already, but this 

one is a real doozie. This is the first time someone has actually given us hope, given 

us a chance, given us the possibility for a BFP. 

Not only has our doctor given us hope, but my friends are already treating me as if I 

am pregnant, my business partners are not letting me take clients for July/August just 

in case. Everyone around me is SO sure this IUI will work, and for a few days I really 

felt that way too. 

So what changed? reality I suppose, there is a very big possibility that I will go for 

this blood test on monday and hear bad news. That I will have to tell all my friends

and business partners that this didn't work, that I can take all the clients they can 

give me in July/August.

I really want to be more hopeful, god knows I'm trying, but I'm so scared to start 

talking to these little beings only to find I've been talking to myself. I want to act as if 

the IUI has worked, to go about my day knowing that I am carrying life, but I am 

afraid of what the consequences of that may be. 

4 more days until the test, I promise until then I will continue to relax, listen to my 

guided meditation CD, do yoga, eat well, take my prenatals, and believe in the 

possibility, It's just a little hard sometimes!