one is a real doozie. This is the first time someone has actually given us hope, given
us a chance, given us the possibility for a BFP.
Not only has our doctor given us hope, but my friends are already treating me as if I
am pregnant, my business partners are not letting me take clients for July/August just
in case. Everyone around me is SO sure this IUI will work, and for a few days I really
felt that way too.
So what changed? reality I suppose, there is a very big possibility that I will go for
this blood test on monday and hear bad news. That I will have to tell all my friends
and business partners that this didn't work, that I can take all the clients they can
give me in July/August.
I really want to be more hopeful, god knows I'm trying, but I'm so scared to start
talking to these little beings only to find I've been talking to myself. I want to act as if
the IUI has worked, to go about my day knowing that I am carrying life, but I am
afraid of what the consequences of that may be.
4 more days until the test, I promise until then I will continue to relax, listen to my
guided meditation CD, do yoga, eat well, take my prenatals, and believe in the
possibility, It's just a little hard sometimes!