Thursday, November 25, 2010

longest 2 weeks waiting EVER!!!

I know I have already done the two weeks waiting thing 28 times already, but this 
one is a real doozie. This is the first time someone has actually given us hope, given 
us a chance, given us the possibility for a BFP. 

Not only has our doctor given us hope, but my friends are already treating me as if I 
am pregnant, my business partners are not letting me take clients for July/August just 
in case. Everyone around me is SO sure this IUI will work, and for a few days I really 
felt that way too. 

So what changed? reality I suppose, there is a very big possibility that I will go for 
this blood test on monday and hear bad news. That I will have to tell all my friends
and business partners that this didn't work, that I can take all the clients they can 
give me in July/August.

I really want to be more hopeful, god knows I'm trying, but I'm so scared to start 
talking to these little beings only to find I've been talking to myself. I want to act as if 
the IUI has worked, to go about my day knowing that I am carrying life, but I am 
afraid of what the consequences of that may be. 

4 more days until the test, I promise until then I will continue to relax, listen to my 
guided meditation CD, do yoga, eat well, take my prenatals, and believe in the 
possibility, It's just a little hard sometimes!


  1. Just four more days ... you can do it! And whatever the outcome, know that hope -- and love -- are never wasted.

    P.S. How's your June looking? :-)

  2. I can only imagine how hard it is, I am ok so far but as I get closer to my beta, I will probably feel the same. I am hoping & praying your first try happens often, so why can't it be you?! xoxoxoxox

  3. I know exactly how you feel & you are doing the right
    thing by relaxing and taking it easy and think positive thoughts! Crossing my fingers for you!

  4. Hope can be such a two-edged sword. Keeping everything crossed for you sweetie, hang in there!

  5. I really hope that you can find some good distraction this weekend!!!!

  6. Good luck in these last few days - I have everything crossed for you!!!

  7. Hoping you get the best kind of news on Monday!!

  8. Just a few more days! Good Luck :)

  9. Oh, these are such a tough 2 weeks! Good luck!