appreciate the comments. I have to admit that this week has been very hard for me,
soon after hearing the news that my cousin had died, my husband found out he lost
his job. Of course after loosing a family member, the loss of a job seemed rather
trivial, but now that were trying to work out a budget it seems quite large.
The 4 days following the accident I spent with my family, attending the wake and the
funeral. It really was some of the saddest days of my life, I still can not really understand
why things like this happen to such wonderful people. Her mother and grandparents
are devastated and I worry so much for them. I just don't know how my family is going
to cope with the void this has caused, but I prey everyday they find the strength to morn
her loss and to eventually smile again. I know that she will be missed, I know she was
loved, and I know that way up there in heaven the angels now have a new boss :)
Over the last week I also received the news that my Laparoscopy has been scheduled
for Sept. 3rd. It really was terrible timing as I had taken June/July off work for the
Surgery and JAM PACKED my september with clients to make up for the loss of income.
I should have known the hospital would have been behind schedule, but I really had
no Idea they would be that far behind, after all, the surgery was set for the beginning of
june. I have been waiting a long time to finally get in, so I know I should to it, but at
the same time I have lots of clients that are depending on me for September.
I am also feeling really nervous about the surgery and am not sure if I really want to
go through with it. I am sure I will, as I need to do something to move forward, but I'm
worried that something terrible will happen. What If I am completely healthy and this
surgery messes everything up? we know for sure that my husband has MFI, maybe
that is the only issue? What if this surgery actually causes more harm then good by
leaving extra scar tissue?
I know I'm being irrational, I'm just nervous and overwhelmed with everything that
has gone on. I just want to crawl in bed for 2 weeks while I sort everything out in my
head, but no one will let me :( Hopefully as the week goes by It will become clearer what
I should do, I have confirmed the date with the surgeon and as it stands (unless I chicken
out) next Friday I am surgery bound!!!!
Praying you receive calmness and positive thoughts. Do some relaxing things for yourself this next week to keep your mind off of upcoming surgery. It will all work out. :)
ReplyDeleteYour not being irrational. If you are completely healthy then I would think the surgery would not completely mess things up (in my opinion). You've waited a long time for this surgery and if it is endo your chances are much higher to conceive after surgery, so it could be a good thing?
ReplyDeleteAgain, I'm so sorry to read about everything that is happening now (the recent death of your cousin followed by the loss of your husbands job are huge stressors!). Please take care and hang in there.
Thinking of you!
What...oh i was shocked by your news about your hubby's job loss! I have been through it with my hubby about 1 year ago when he lost his job..it was so sudden!
ReplyDeleteThe stress of your upcoming surgery is completely understanding--mind you i'm chicken s*** when it comes to me and if i have to undergo anything which has to do with the hospital! You are very strong to even book a date for it!
Look at this time with your hubby as a much needed time to spend a bit more time together even though i know it is difficult when he is out of work for the time being. I am sure he will be able to find something very soon.
Try not to think too much..i know easy said than done but you can only deal with what you can on a day to day basis. Most importantly take care of your health and each other.
I will be thinking about you......
Oh wow - you have so much going on! Again, I'm so sorry about your cousin. And your husband's job loss - that sucks! That has to be weighing very heavily right now.
ReplyDeleteI think it's good that you're finally getting the surgery done. Try to be good to yourself - this is a lot to take on. Hugs to you!
What kind of work does your husband do (if you don't mind sharing)? I'm not that well-connected after 10 months away from the working world, but I am connected to people who are very connected ... let me know if I can help in any way!
ReplyDeleteAnd as part of that, Seve and I would be more than happy to bring you some vittles to see you through your recovery ... again, just let us know!
-- J
It's hard to make these decisions when you have so much stress. I am so sorry for your family.
ReplyDeleteYou have been waiting for this surgery for a long time and it sounds like you want to move forward with a clearer endo diagnosis?
Wishing you and your family the best of recoveries--in surgery, grief, healing, employment and all.
So sorry to hear about your family's loss.
ReplyDeleteConcerning the laparoscopy, the surgery can cause scar tissue, BUT if you are healthy, the only incision that will be made is through your skin to put the camera in and look around and those cuts are tiny. You won't have any scar tissue or damage anywhere else if they just look around. If they do need to cut inside your pelvis, they only do it if the benefit outweighs the risk of the scarring for your particular situation.
I'm not a doctor. I've just weighed the pros and cons of surgery with my RE a few times. And I just wanted to tell you what I remembered from those conversations to reassure you that if you are fine, the lap won't make you worse.
I'm sorry you are going through so many stressful situations at once..hopefully they are all getting out of the way now and 2011 will be relaxing!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness! I'm so behind!
ReplyDeleteFirst off, you've been in my thoughts. I can't believe your surgery is this Fri!!!! Oh my goodness! If you need anything just let me know! I wish I wasn't such an expert, but unfortunately I am :(
Hugs!!!