appreciate the comments. I have to admit that this week has been very hard for me,
soon after hearing the news that my cousin had died, my husband found out he lost
his job. Of course after loosing a family member, the loss of a job seemed rather
trivial, but now that were trying to work out a budget it seems quite large.
The 4 days following the accident I spent with my family, attending the wake and the
funeral. It really was some of the saddest days of my life, I still can not really understand
why things like this happen to such wonderful people. Her mother and grandparents
are devastated and I worry so much for them. I just don't know how my family is going
to cope with the void this has caused, but I prey everyday they find the strength to morn
her loss and to eventually smile again. I know that she will be missed, I know she was
loved, and I know that way up there in heaven the angels now have a new boss :)
Over the last week I also received the news that my Laparoscopy has been scheduled
for Sept. 3rd. It really was terrible timing as I had taken June/July off work for the
Surgery and JAM PACKED my september with clients to make up for the loss of income.
I should have known the hospital would have been behind schedule, but I really had
no Idea they would be that far behind, after all, the surgery was set for the beginning of
june. I have been waiting a long time to finally get in, so I know I should to it, but at
the same time I have lots of clients that are depending on me for September.
I am also feeling really nervous about the surgery and am not sure if I really want to
go through with it. I am sure I will, as I need to do something to move forward, but I'm
worried that something terrible will happen. What If I am completely healthy and this
surgery messes everything up? we know for sure that my husband has MFI, maybe
that is the only issue? What if this surgery actually causes more harm then good by
leaving extra scar tissue?
I know I'm being irrational, I'm just nervous and overwhelmed with everything that
has gone on. I just want to crawl in bed for 2 weeks while I sort everything out in my
head, but no one will let me :( Hopefully as the week goes by It will become clearer what
I should do, I have confirmed the date with the surgeon and as it stands (unless I chicken
out) next Friday I am surgery bound!!!!