Still MIA

Wow, I don't know what's wrong with me, I can't seem to get my act 

together long enough to update this blog. I used to constantly feel like

blogging, but for some reason this last few weeks I have felt like 

there is nothing to say. As far as fertility goes there is nothing new 

going on, we still can't have a baby.....and we still don't know what to

do about it. It's almost like I'm a deer caught in the headlights and I 

don't know which way to turn. 

I started AF yesterday while teaching a prenatal yoga class, confirming

yet again that the universe is playing some kind of joke on me. I was

also ONE day late so I had my silly little hopes up, also confirming that

I have not gotten past my NEED to be a parent as I had expressed in 

my last post. 

I am still feeling better about my childless life RIGHT NOW though, 

it is allowing me to dive fully into this business venture which has 

been both exciting and distracting. I thought since I had nothing 

much to say in the baby making front, I could tell y'all a little about

this company. 

3 doula friends and I have joined forces and become a collective, 

between the 4 doula's we are able to offer a lot of prenatal and 

postpartum services. It has been coming together very nicely and

we are all so happy to feel like we have a little bit of direction. It

is a small business. we know, but in our hearts it's SO BIG.

In all our planning and creating I noticed there was something missing

in our business plan, something that I hold near and dear to me now, 

something that I maybe would not have had we started this 2 years ago, 

or if I was easily able to have a baby. There was no fertility services, 

no yoga, nutrition, support groups, nothing for people like us. So thats 

now my job in my new but growing company.....head of fertility services. 

Of course I'm still going to be a doula and a yoga teacher ext......but over 

the next few years I'm going to build a nice safe haven for people like us 

to come in, have a tea and chat. Some sort of support network or

informational community, maybe even some yoga classes and nutritional

guidance.

I'm not really sure how to start, as I have only been dealing with this

a short time compared to many others....but part of me feels like THIS 

IS IT....THIS is the reason for my struggles, I was meant to DO THIS!!

I dunno, that may sound crazy, but my nose is in books and I'm reading

and researching and building programs and trying to pull everything

together......the ball is rolling and it does not look like it can be stopped!